As time goes on with the passing of my corgi Lucy. There are certainly good days and okay days. The nights now have been more difficult than the mornings. I’m not sure why it switched up. Maybe it will switch back.
Yesterday morning all I wanted to do was to stay in bed and not go to yoga. Now I love yoga, so you know I’m still sad. But I forced myself to go.
During yoga Lucy came! When I opened my eyes I could still see her! It was incredible. I was so full of gratitude to feel the connection with her. As I was driving home I thanked her and asked her for guidance now that the 3 of them were together. (My yellow lab Sammy Diva, Mochi my Mainecoon- who also just visited me the other night ) I heard yes, the trifecta is together and they would guide me. In fact, I heard a F*&* yeah. Well I laughed and knew that was Lucy since I don’t use that phrase.
This morning I was in the shower – water can be so healing in itself. I looked at the wall and I could see Lucy’s silhouette. It was very strong. Staring at it and not believing my eyes but then my eyes moved to the glass. The letters said LET GO. I was like let go?! First of all I couldn’t believe that the words appeared there. If I had my iPhone I would have taken a picture. The words remained there until I cleared the glass.
As I was driving on the freeway to see my Dad, I kept seeing “B” every where on every car. If I saw 18, 111, 888 – those are all familiar. But “B”? Be what. Lucy said just be.
Sometimes that is all we need to do – and that is be. Everything works itself out around us. Sometimes we just need to let go and trust the Universe that all is well. Peace and relief. Yes, joy is still there.